PoT: Challenge: Need

[branchandroot]

Fic post from my archive.

Need

Fuji visits Rikkai, hoping Yukimura can explicate a few things for him. Drama, I-3

"Fuji," Seiichi sighed, running a hand through his hair. Still, he had been trying to wake Fuji up for years, now. Something he suspected Fuji had recalled, too.

Comments

[mica-chan.livejournal.com]

I'm in a problem of real desire here. I don't know what I really think. I mean, I like Fuji but he has been annoying latelly. I don't know why, but that's how I feel about him.

I know Fuji is a tensai, I know he can be a better player than Tezuka, but I don't think that he already is. Even if he really gives his best.

I understood what Yukimura did and why (even though I totally dislike him loosing to Fuji), but in my mind, he isn't good enough to surpass Tezuka or Yukimura. Maybe, not even Atobe. Ok, maybe now, that Tezuka and Yukimura were off for sometime (and a couple of months have a lot of importance in someone ability...even though they aparently are back to normal), but what I saw was a Yukimura who gave his not-so-best, or should I say his aparently-best. I mean, he wanted some real reaction from Fuji and he played 'real' since the beginning, but deep inside him, he could uncontiously helding back.
It doesn't make any sense, I know, but that's because I can't find English words to explain what's inside my mind, and what I saw when I was reading. Geeez, sometimes I hate not speak English fluently.

Well, let's see what'll happen next. Maybe the great problem is that I can't suport the idea of some guy of Seigaku being better and stronger than Tezuka (or Yukimura or Atobe). I have a twisted vison of the reality sometimes, and I need things to ajust into my previous thoughts.

[branchandroot]

No, no, that all made sense!

In some ways I very much agree. I think it all depends on whether Fuji can get motivated or not. Because that's why the others are so strong, why they can advance in such crazy ways--they're completely motivated and focused on their goal. Fuji hasn't had that, to date. He's been incredibly talented, but lazy. When Yukimura said he was a bully, he wasn't kidding; that's what Fuji has been. Basing this off the manga, I like to think that Fuji is having an awakening; I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt for now. As of current manga-time, I think he's gone as far as he can with pure talent, and that has taken him to just above the current level of Tezuka/Yukimura/Atobe. What will really decide whether he takes his place among the very best or not will be whether he can really take hold of a soul-deep desire to play the game and win, just for the excellence of the game itself. If he can't... Yukimura and Tezuka and Atobe will pass him, because they will have the motive to advance and Fuji won't.

Of course, that's one of the reasons I'm letting Yukimura deliver the wake-up call. I don't think Tezuka could; Fuji wouldn't hear it from him. Yukimura has a better chance, I think.