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Branch ([personal profile] branchandroot) wrote2004-07-02 01:18 am

PoT: Challenge: Need

Fic post from my archive.

Need

Fuji visits Rikkai, hoping Yukimura can explicate a few things for him. Drama, I-3

"Fuji," Seiichi sighed, running a hand through his hair. Still, he had been trying to wake Fuji up for years, now. Something he suspected Fuji had recalled, too.

[identity profile] mica-chan.livejournal.com 2004-07-02 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm in a problem of real desire here. I don't know what I really think. I mean, I like Fuji but he has been annoying latelly. I don't know why, but that's how I feel about him.

I know Fuji is a tensai, I know he can be a better player than Tezuka, but I don't think that he already is. Even if he really gives his best.

I understood what Yukimura did and why (even though I totally dislike him loosing to Fuji), but in my mind, he isn't good enough to surpass Tezuka or Yukimura. Maybe, not even Atobe. Ok, maybe now, that Tezuka and Yukimura were off for sometime (and a couple of months have a lot of importance in someone ability...even though they aparently are back to normal), but what I saw was a Yukimura who gave his not-so-best, or should I say his aparently-best. I mean, he wanted some real reaction from Fuji and he played 'real' since the beginning, but deep inside him, he could uncontiously helding back.
It doesn't make any sense, I know, but that's because I can't find English words to explain what's inside my mind, and what I saw when I was reading. Geeez, sometimes I hate not speak English fluently.

Well, let's see what'll happen next. Maybe the great problem is that I can't suport the idea of some guy of Seigaku being better and stronger than Tezuka (or Yukimura or Atobe). I have a twisted vison of the reality sometimes, and I need things to ajust into my previous thoughts.