Over

We had my older cat, Cu, euthanized this afternoon. And I'm sad/angry/hurt/upset that he's gone, my baby-cat, my beautiful gray fluffy, the one who most thought I was Momma Cat. And at the same time I'm very glad that I know for absolute fact that it was fast and painless, because I was there. And I'm glad that he won't suffer any more, because last night I was half afraid he'd die right then.

And it's over and I don't really want to talk about it. Just. I love him and he's gone.