In love with perpetuation

So, there's some meta running around my head, now, and it's all p_zeitgeist's fault.

You see, I've been wandering through her Yami no Matsuei material, and some of her perspective on Hisoka crystalized something that I've found weird about YnM for a long time. I think this weird thing is actually a pattern that's common to Japanese literature in general, but anime and manga certainly, and it is the pattern of somehow valuing the perpetuation of pain and/or shame.

( Inevitability seems to be the name of the game )

ES21: Standalone: Personal Weapons

Fic post from my archive.

Personal Weapons

Hiruma and Mamori play with guns. Romance, I-2

The telling point, she felt, was that, however enticing the idea of things that went bang and whoosh and crackle were, she didn't really want to shoot Hiruma himself. If she were being corrupted by his wild, thoughtless attitude she would, wouldn't she? No one annoyed her as much as he did, after all.