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Jul. 9th, 2006 07:32 pmRereading the Rain Match, hoping it will prod the bunnies.
Fuji.
It isn't that he doesn't care about winning or losing. In fact, I'd say he probably hates to lose. It's just that he doesn't really have much reason to think in those terms. He doesn't lose; so there isn't any real reason for him to either be afraid of losing, or motivated by that fear, or to value winning particularly. Winning and losing are not his scale of value. So of course competition, and the determination the others show, isn't why he's doing this.
As for what his scale of value /is/... the thrill is clearly part of it. The thrill of the possibility of loss. Not the fear, which is, I'd say, why it never becomes a motivation to him. But the pressure of someone closing in and making him work for it. Given how rarely he says that comes, though, another part would seem to be... aesthetic. Drawing his opponents out and seeing them at their limits, as he says.
And, of course, that's why he doesn't consider himself 'serious'. Because it's all totally personal reasons, with no greater goal or will to exceed. The shape of future matches seems to indicate that he might not actually be aware, at this point, of the possibility of being serious--that he thinks Tezuka, and perhaps Echizen too, are like him, doing this for the personal thrill. To an extent, I think he's right about Echizen, this early on. Which may be why they clicked so well, in this match.
I think this story will have to be from Fuji's pov.
Fuji.
It isn't that he doesn't care about winning or losing. In fact, I'd say he probably hates to lose. It's just that he doesn't really have much reason to think in those terms. He doesn't lose; so there isn't any real reason for him to either be afraid of losing, or motivated by that fear, or to value winning particularly. Winning and losing are not his scale of value. So of course competition, and the determination the others show, isn't why he's doing this.
As for what his scale of value /is/... the thrill is clearly part of it. The thrill of the possibility of loss. Not the fear, which is, I'd say, why it never becomes a motivation to him. But the pressure of someone closing in and making him work for it. Given how rarely he says that comes, though, another part would seem to be... aesthetic. Drawing his opponents out and seeing them at their limits, as he says.
And, of course, that's why he doesn't consider himself 'serious'. Because it's all totally personal reasons, with no greater goal or will to exceed. The shape of future matches seems to indicate that he might not actually be aware, at this point, of the possibility of being serious--that he thinks Tezuka, and perhaps Echizen too, are like him, doing this for the personal thrill. To an extent, I think he's right about Echizen, this early on. Which may be why they clicked so well, in this match.
I think this story will have to be from Fuji's pov.
